Throughout my life, I have done quite a bit of living, loving, and learning. To me, these are all basic parts of life that everyone does at some point in time in different ways, times, and degrees. What does it actually mean to live? Does it mean to simply be breathing and have your heart pumping...yes, but being alive to me is also so much more. To me it means to be able to feel the freedom that we often take advantage of everyday, it means we are able to take a deep breath of fresh air and enjoy the little things like the birds singing, the smell of wild flowers, and hearing the rain fall. It is the ability to feel emotions like no other being. It is the gift that God has given us to be able to love.
We live in a life that is full of things that we say we love. Love is such a strong, yet overused word. Sure it is okay to love, I say I love a lot of things, like the shirt I wore today or a picture on the wall. But do I really love them or do I just like them? I am lucky enough to be able to say that I do have true love in my life. First of all, thanks to the love that God has given me, I have learned and am still learning how to truly love. I really try to put God first on my love list, where He belongs, but regretfully that does not always happen. But I'm also lucky enough to know that I am forgiven as long as I am constantly trying to do that. I have been so blessed in my life by being born into a family that loved me and showed me what it meant to be loved and to give love. I truly love each member of my family so much and only hope that they feel as loved as I do. My husband...I never knew what it meant to truly love someone in such a passionate way until I fell in love with my husband. I have learned the true meaning of soulmate over the past seven years. Not only is our love wonderfully romantic, it is much more than that...it is an indescribable bond that anyone would be incredibly blessed to experience for even just a few minutes. He is my best friend. I have also been blessed to have developed very special relationships with some of my closest friends. I have the opportunity to share my life with them and they share their life with me. Through each of these relationships, I have grown in different ways. Each person that is significant in my life has touched me different ways and has hopefully made me a better person.
There is so much to learn about life. I think I have learned the most important part already... that as long as I love Jesus and trust and obey in Him, in the end nothing else really matters. It is my job to hopefully teach others that same thing so that they may have the peace that I strive for. However, it is not always that easy. It is a constant struggle to achieve that peace. The hard part is to trust God so much that you know that even if things don't go the way you think they should, it is still the way that God has planned and in the end I will be better off, and hopefully someone else will be also. Trusting God can be a very hard thing to learn. I trust my husband with all of my heart. Not to say that I trust him more than God. I know that if I did that it would not logically make sense, since my husband is only human and is fallible. Then why is it easier sometimes to trust a mere human so easily and have difficulty completely trusting your Creator? Is it because I am afraid of what my future may hold? This is one thing I am continuing to learn everyday of my life. I know there will be a day when I can enjoy complete peace...I think I am almost there :)
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